My definition, my definition is this!

I have so many questions for myself, my brain starts going around in circles when I start to ask myself, why am I creating Kitten? Or am I , is she just an extension of myself that has never been addressed? Do I need to be doing this or is it just me looking for excitement? Does it matter why I do it if I am enjoying it, am I enjoying it?. I have been sharing her with my friends hoping that they will help me to understand what I am doing through their questions and comments. Most people that I have introduced her to have been very receptive, or at least not unreceptive, and not very surprised that I would choose to dress as a woman. My mate has been doing some research on the topic of crossdressing, transvestitism, transexuals, drag queens and the rainbow of variations between. Wikipedia has these as some of the various relevant listings.

Drag queen-is usually a man who dresses (or "drags") in female clothes and make-up for special occasions and usually because they are performing or entertaining as a hostess, stage artist or at an event. This is in contrast to those who cross-dress for reasons other than as a source of entertainment for others or transgender people who are not necessarily drag queens or cross-dressers but sometimes fit into those labels.

Transvestism-is the practice of cross-dressing, which is wearing the clothing of the opposite sex.

Transvestite-refers to a person who cross-dresses; however, the word often has additional connotations.

(from Latin trans-, "across, over" and vestere, "to dress or to wear")

Cross-dressing-is the act of wearing clothing commonly associated with another gender within a particular society.

Androgyny-is a term derived from the Greek words ανήρ (anér, meaning man) and γυνή(gyné, meaning woman)[1] that can refer to either of two related concepts about gender. Either the mixing of masculine and feminine characteristics, be it fashion statements, or the balance of "anima" and "animus" in psychoanalytic theory.

Androgyne
An androgyne is a person who does not fit cleanly into the typical masculine and feminine gender roles of their society. They may also use the term ambigender to describe themselves. Many androgynes identify as being mentally "between" male and female, or as entirely genderless. They may class themselves as non-gendered, agendered, between genders, Intergendered, bigendered or, gender fluid.
En femme

The term en femme is used in the transgender community, usually by male crossdressers, to describe wearing feminine clothing or expressing a feminine personality. The term is derived from the French, meaning literally "as a woman". Most crossdressers also use a femme (female) name whilst en femme. Many male cross-dressers correspondingly refer to their usual male presentation (boy-mode) as being en homme. "In drab" has also come to be used among some crossdressers in this way.

I feel as though each of these words and their corresponding definitions is applicable to me in some way, I respond very well to the sound of En femme or androgyne, and tend to dislike the sound of transvestite and drag queen. Crossdresser is the most boring, straightforward description of what I am doing when I become Kitten. I was asked whether I felt that my dressing as Kitten was more of a social experiment, or a "fetish" of some sort. I found this to be an extremely poignant question. My reply was to say if either, a social experiment, though there are definate fetishistic qualities to the way I feel when I become Kitten.

When I am Kitten I find that I have a very different response to my environment and I definately behave differently than I normally would. I am told that I am less sarcastic, more even tempered & refined, gentle, a more considerate lover, though more passive. That is not to say I am a bad guy, or a rude lover, more it illustrates the change in my energy and the ways that I express myself. I feel as though I am less likely to become erect and it seems to take more stimulation to get an erection started, though when I do have one I really have one! Sex is a very different experience, for starters their is more inclination toward foreplay and petting and when we do get into eachother I feel a definate passivity that is not as present when I am masculine. I definately still enjoy being my masculine self too, and my mate loves me as both people so I see no reason to discontinue exploration in this area. Until next time, adieu!

Kitten.